“Kill Me, Heal Me” Ep. 18: “That’s How I Endured It”

Thank you, Show! I put a lot of faith in you after episode 17, and you amply rewarded me. I knew Cha Do-Hyun and Oh Ri-Jin could work their problems out if they just stopped “fussing over this and that,” as Perry Park calls it. We even get some humor here. All in all, episode 18 was so good I had to watch it several times before tearing myself away to write this post.

One advantage of the extensive flashbacks in episode 17 was to give Ji Sung and Hwang Jung-Eum a little time off to rehydrate. They come back in episode 18 ready for Olympic-level feats of synchronized weeping.

But the tears serve their purpose and bring our hero and heroine together again, just in time to get ready for showdowns with an unsavoury blackmailer and the Seung Jin Group stockholders. This episode provided enough resolution to the biggest emotional conflicts that I’m actually looking forward to a little corporate warfare. The boardroom would be an appropriate place to teach Grandma Seo a lesson.

Even though our hero and heroine were only separated for one episode, when Shin Se-Ki joins Oh Ri-Jin at the opening of episode 18, it feels like they’ve been apart forever. We can see how far they’ve come in this series by the fact that Oh Ri-Jin smiles when she sees him (above). When he asks her to run away with him, she’s ready to go. She texts Oh Ri-On not to worry—she knows how to control Shin Se-Ki. (Oh Ri-On’s come a long way, too, because he doesn’t immediately freak out.)

Shin Se-Ki fills in the rest of the story of the fire for Oh Ri-Jin. He started the fire, in the belief it would save the girl in the basement. But in typical Shin Se-Ki fashion, he didn’t plan things out particularly well. The fire spreads quickly while Cha Jun-Pyo carries his his son from the building. The boy begs his father to save “Do-Hyun,” the little girl, and his father goes back for her.

Jun-Pyo finds the basement empty, however. Before he can get there, Ji Soon-Young—Oh Ri-Jin’s adopted mother—rescues the little girl from the basement. But Jun-Pyo’s attempt to find her makes him an ambiguous figure. He’s cruel, yet not a murderer. He risks his life to save his son and the girl—and the result is his long coma.

The most interesting part of this story is what we learn about Cha Do-Hyun’s name. Before the fire, he was Joon-Young. But when he wakes after the fire to find the girl “Do-Hyun” gone, he believes she’s been killed. He blames himself. (I guess although he doesn’t remember starting the fire, he figures out that he was involved?)

kill me heal me episode 18 ji sung shin seki hears from blackmailer large optAnd in another strange identity inversion reminiscent of his mixed-up childhood memories, the boy stops recognizing his own name, Joon-Young. He answers to the name Cha Do-Hyun now, as if by taking the name, he can forget the child who died. He packs away his memories of the girl into the alter called Nana, who “sleeps” for 21 years, to wake only recently. Grandma Seo “fixes things” by amending the family registry. The little girl remains missing, taken by “a friend of Min Seo-Yeon’s.”

It’s surprising, but psychologically satisfying, to learn that our hero takes the name Cha Do-Hyun accidentally, as the result of trauma. Grandma Seo is guilty of many things, but not stealing our heroine’s name. But learning that the boy forgot his own name makes his emotional abuse appear that much worse.

We get a chance to think more about this name after the blackmail sequence. It wasn’t clear in earlier episodes why Cha Do-Hyun paid money to his “friend” Alex in the States, but we can guess from Shin Se-Ki’s expression when he gets a call from Alex (above). It appears this “friend” has blackmailed Cha Do-Hyun multiple times, threatening to reveal his DID. Now he’s considering selling the information to Cha Ki-Joon.

Shin Se-Ki nearly kills Alex, but Cha Do-Hyun comes out in time to prevent a murder. At the end of this sequence, we don’t know where things stand with Alex, but he mails a key to Cha Ki-Joon later in the episode, so we can presume the DID cat will soon be out of the bag.

More importantly, Cha Do-Hyun finds himself suddenly with Oh Ri-Jin. He last saw her when he walked away after breaking their contract, and when he sees her again, he looks every bit as embarrassed as he should. He’s also worried: since hearing about her condition from Dr. Seok Ho-Pil, Cha Do-Hyun is afraid that her memories have returned.

Oh Ri-Jin is as awesome here as we all hoped she’d be. Yes, she says, she remembers now. But along with the painful memories she has good memories—of her mother who rescued her, and especially of the boy who risked his life to visit every night at 10 pm. He gave her hope, which kept her mind intact. “That’s how I endured it,” she says.

Cha Do-Hyun apologizes for taking her name. Oh Ri-Jin counters by saying she feels bad that he was damaged more than she was. She believes his psychological difficulties now are because he worried so much about her as a child. And so she offers him a gift: the name Cha Do-Hyun. She wants him to be able to answer “I’m Cha Do-Hyun,” just as he did in the past (above).

As far-fetched as Kill Me, Heal Me is 99 percent of the time, the one percent kernel of truth at its heart is the way children’s fears continue to mold their emotions as they grow into adults. It fits with our knowledge of neuroscience that having one friend could shield Oh Ri-Jin from the worst effects of psychological trauma when she was seven. One reliable person is a million times better than none.

It makes sense, too, that Cha Do-Hyun’s brain suffered more—though the toughest thing for the boy might not have been worrying about Oh Ri-Jin. Developmental psychology might say the hardest thing was witnessing his father’s transformation. Whereas the child Oh Ri-Jin could be confident her mother loved her, despite her death, Cha Do-Hyun probably felt abandoned and betrayed by his father. A parent who disappears completely is an easier loss than a parent who suddenly turns cruel or neglectful. The latter throws into disarray everything a child normally learns about how to treat others and what kind of treatment to expect for himself.

kill me heal me episode 18 ji sung shin seki hears from blackmailer large optAfter the touching scene in which Oh Ri-Jin “gives” Cha Do-Hyun his name, our sensitive lovers part ways for a second time. Oh, my aching heart! Cha Do-Hyun drives Oh Ri-Jin back to Ssang Ri and they say goodbye with a depressing finality. Cha Do-Hyun is determined to stick to his plan of letting Oh Ri-Jin go, so that she can have a happy life far away from him.

I’m confident Oh Ri-Jin can move on and be happy no matter what. She takes Cha Do-Hyun’s ongoing rejection with good grace. But none of us—Oh Ri-Jin included—really believe Cha Do-Hyun can find happiness away from her. It’s a huge relief that as Oh Ri-Jin walks away, Cha Do-Hyun breaks down and Perry Park drops by for a visit.

Can I just say how much I adore Perry Park? Yo-Na gets the most love from viewers, but I find Perry Park the most hilarious of Ji Sung’s performances in Kill Me, Heal Me. Ji Sung’s awesome as Yo-Na, but Perry Park is no less wonderful than the boy-crazy teenager. At least Yo-Na appears to come from a socio-economic class within hailing distance of Cha Do-Hyun’s. Perry Park, however, is so outrageously from another class, place and generation that he and Cha Do-Hyun might as well be from different planets.

Because I’m not Korean and I only know a few dozen words of Korean, I don’t have much cultural context for understanding Perry Park. I can’t say what regional accent  (saturi) he’s speaking in or what stereotypes he taps into. So why is it that Ji Sung cracks me up anyway?

One reason is that Perry Park’s gestures and mannerisms are so different from Cha Do-Hyun’s that it doesn’t matter whether you understand Korean. His enthusiasm for a drink, his cheeky smile, that little strut when he walks—he’s not only the anti-Cha Do-Hyun, but also the opposite of every K-drama hero ever. We expect to see Ji Sung play a variety of roles, but not this one.

Partly because of Perry Park’s love of loud clothing, partly because of his tough guy exterior, I register him as a working class guy from Long Island. But even if I didn’t translate Perry into my own cultural terms, his loudness, forthrightness and gangster swagger would still be distinctive. I don’t have to recognize his accent to find it funny when Mr. Oh embraces Perry like a long-lost brother in this episode. And I love the typical middle-aged-male way that Perry talks about Oh Ri-Jin to her father as if she isn’t standing right there (above).

Perry provides ironic commentary on our tragic lovers’ separation, saying this “tear-jerking soap opera” is a whole lot of fuss over nothing. In a world full of Perrys, every K-drama would be comic and there would be no need to keep the tissue box close to hand.

I was sad to see Perry leave before he could even have a drink. The visits in rapid succession from Yo-Sub and Yo-Na (above) give the sense that we may be seeing these characters for the last time. Viewers have called for a few episodes for a chance to laugh again, and the alters’ visits give us some comic relief. But with only two more episodes remaining, and a lot of characters for us to say goodbye to, Yo-Sub is probably right that the alters might not have much time—at least on our screens.

The challenge with wrapping up a television series is to resolve the most important plot threads without leaching out the narrative tension too early. A story doesn’t feel right unless the stakes and challenges continue to rise for the characters until the end. But if you have a number of plot lines, you have to start wrapping them up before the final episode. Add to this challenge that K-drama writers and directors have to pull together their finales after weeks of live shooting, on minimal sleep and fraying nerves.

I try to keep my hopes low for K-drama finales because the risk of disappointment is high. I enjoyed Healer for most of its 20-episode run, but in the final four episodes, the “rising action” that’s supposed to propel a narrative took a nose dive instead. As a result, I feel vaguely used when I think back on Healer—I feel like the show duped me into caring deeply, only to say, “Ha! Just kidding! The characters weren’t really in danger after all. The bad guys weren’t really scary. We exaggerated to get your attention, and you totally bought it! Ha ha!”

kill me heal me episode 18 ji sung hwang jung eum tied together large optOf course, it isn’t entirely the writer’s fault if I get emotionally involved in a show. But an enormous part of a writer’s art is predicting and managing audience expectations. It’s an ancient principle of story-telling that the tension should increase as the story goes on. If it’s a story about monster-killing, for instance, then Beowulf will fight the inexperienced Grendel before taking on his bad-ass mother. American high schoolers wouldn’t be puzzling over the Old English epic 1500 years later if the mighty swinger with a saber had killed Grendel’s mother and then said, “Oh, yeah, I’ll get that wimpy Grendel guy, too, while I’m here.”

Sometimes a writer throws in curve balls to maintain suspense. But the surprises shouldn’t contradict the story so far. Healer loses me at the end because the ruthless bad guys stop being ruthless—no longer are they trying to throw people down elevator shafts, suddenly the worst they can do is threaten the hero’s reputation. We’d been led to believe that the heroine saw her mother beaten with a lead pipe as a child, or something equally brutal, but the truth turns out less horrible than we’d imagined. And the show originally argued that mere media coverage couldn’t avail against the evil conspirators, yet ends with a media report saving the day.

Kill Me, Heal Me offers similarly exaggerated villains—Grandma Seo and Shin Hwa-Ran—and an exaggerated sense of dark secrets in the past. But as we’ve learned more about the past in recent episodes, I’ve felt satisfied that events 21 years ago were as dark as promised. The Chairman was formidable and cruel, Jun-Pyo was once decent but couldn’t stand up to his father, and our hero himself burned down the entire mansion and put his father in a coma, on the very day that dad was becoming CEO. Everyone in the family was slightly crazy—or very crazy.

The narrative about past events has been effective. What about the other plots—the romance, the DID and the Seung Jin Group boardroom shenanigans? Will we have enough to keep the plot moving forward steadily for two more episodes?

The romance between Cha Do-Hyun and Oh Ri-Jin reaches an emotionally satisfying climax in episode 18 (above and below), leaving us with a lot fewer problems to solve next week.

As Cha Do-Hyun’s alters visit one right after another, Oh Ri-On suggests the alters are trying to stay close to Oh Ri-Jin in place of Cha Do-Hyun. His alters won’t let him leave her. For the first time, Oh Ri-On seems more worried about Cha Do-Hyun than his sister is.

Perhaps Cha Do-Hyun realizes they won’t let him leave. When he wakes in the night to find himself in Yo-Na’s fluffy pyjamas, tied to Oh Ri-Jin with a length of rope (above), maybe it’s clear to him that he can’t escape, no matter how determined he was during his last moments of consciousness earlier in the evening. The two of them are tied together in more ways than one.

Cha Do-Hyun makes up here for his rude departure in episode 16 by telling Oh Ri-Jin that he realizes he feels more pain without her than with her. He asks her to stay with him. I’m glad he got to the point of saying this out loud. Bonus points for delivering this confession wearing pink pyjamas and lip gloss.

Oh Ri-On’s sudden entry into the room provides an opportunity for a new variation on the “cosplay” joke: Cha Do-Hyun attempts to cosplay Yo-Na. Oh Ri-On doesn’t buy it but humors him, giving us a chance to enjoy watching Ji Sung pretending to be Cha Do-Hyun pretending unconvincingly to be Yo-Na (below).

This sequence at the Oh family restaurant gives us some much-needed uplift and humor, but it also shows development in Oh Ri-On’s point of view. The visits from Shin Se-Ki, Perry Park and the other alters—coming all together in one day—seem to make Oh Ri-On aware that he’s outnumbered. Even if he can keep Cha Do-Hyun away from Oh Ri-Jin, he can’t keep them all away.

Oh Ri-On is also less worried about his sister now. Her memories have returned and she’s past the worst shock. She’s still speaking to Oh Ri-On despite the secrets he kept from her. And he knows now that they’ll always be siblings, whatever secret desires he might have had in the past.

It’s particularly cute that Oh Ri-On has become accustomed to Cha Do-Hyun’s personality swings—he and Oh Ri-Jin jump into action together to cover up Cha Do-Hyun’s eccentricities. Oh Ri-Jin’s parents still don’t know who this guy really is, but they, too, are surprisingly adaptable. Perry has a totally different personality than Cha Do-Hyun, but Mr. Oh loves this version just as much (perhaps more, since Perry drinks and likes fishing).

Thanks to the versatile Oh family, I can imagine Kill Me, Heal Me reaching a “happily ever after” without Cha Do-Hyun’s DID disappearing for good. As we say in the mental illness community, the goal isn’t a cure—there are no cures for the most difficult disorders—but a good life. Cha Do-Hyun can relax with Oh Ri-Jin because even if something disturbs his peace of mind, she and her family can handle his alters. The DID isn’t the end of the world in this family, like it is in Cha Do-Hyun’s birth family. Mr. Oh will happily be a drinking buddy for Perry Park for decades to come, and Oh Ri-Jin’s mom will feed late-night meals to whatever personalities stop by.

kill me heal me episode 18 ji sung hwang jung eum final scene large optThe end of episode 18 gives us a satisfyingly sweet moment with our hero and heroine together at last—and away from Oh Ri-On’s suspicious eyes. Equally as satisfying, we get to see Cha Do-Hyun at work in that well-tailored suit of his again. (Pardon me while my mind wanders for a moment…) And the plot promises more business-suit-sexiness yet to come, as Cha Do-Hyun declares his intention to fight for possession of the conglomerate.

For several episodes, I’ve had no interest in what happens at Seung Jin Group. But now that Oh Ri-Jin and Cha Do-Hyun are reunited, I’m looking forward to seeing Cha Do-Hyun display some new-found confidence in front of his uncle and cousin. When Cha Do-Hyun shows up at a board meeting late in episode 18, I remember that great scene in episode 3, when he impressed everyone despite the blood dripping from his sleeve. More boardroom action could be entertaining.

I hope the writer and director can keep the pressure on and make this fight count for something. I feel like Oh Ri-Jin and Cha Do-Hyun will be happy as long as they can stay together, so there’s a big risk these final episodes will be anti-climactic. But with Cha Ki-Joon about to find out about the DID, with Chae-Yeon still trying to manipulate Cha Do-Hyun, and with Uncle Cha ready to stop at nothing, there’s no shortage of potential conflicts.

My fingers are crossed for next week. I want the bad guys to be really evil, Cha Do-Hyun to channel some Shin Se-Ki attitude, and maybe Writer Omega to be a surprise weapon at Cha Do-Hyun’s side. I don’t need Grandma to repent all her sins, but I wouldn’t mind if at the end we see her alone, slowly expiring as she drops a snow-globe to the floor and murmurs, “Rosebud…” And I won’t give up hope for one more smoking hot kiss. Got it, Show?

17 thoughts on ““Kill Me, Heal Me” Ep. 18: “That’s How I Endured It”

  1. Loved your recap. You hit all the right notes for me. I’ve read all the recaps out there regarding these last two eps and the reactions are mixed. Some were satisfied with how the secrets were revealed, others not so much. And can u believe that some are still confused at this point? Ep 17 basically spelled it out for us. Anyway, since I have consumed all I can on this show, I’m happy to say that I’m neither confused nor dissatisfied. I trust this show and will keep my hopes up for the finale. Surprise me show! If there’s one thing I’ve learnt, it’s to trust the cast and crew. They know what their doing and haven’t ever ignored our pleas. In that I’m referring to more PERRY time. I missed him too. 😉

    Oh and p.s I’m sure the show knows that we must get a very healthy kiss at the end, thank you very much.

    • I’m so glad you like Perry, too! I have this vision of him and Mr. Oh spending some merry evenings together in future. I really want him to get that drink. The amount of brain power online going into piecing together the KMHM backstory is super-impressive, but I’m starting to think some people are actually getting MORE confused as we get more information! I do so hope we get our kiss–I’ve learned not to count on it. Keeping my optimism cautious…telling myself as long as we get to see Ji Sung wearing that suit, I’ll be happy.

  2. I am very confused about the timeline. Since you are all into drawing diagrams and charts maybe you can help clear the confusion 🙂
    1. Grandpa Cha brings back MSY and little CDH (now ORJ) back to Korea
    2. Soon after Daddy Cha comes back with little CJY (now CDH)
    3. Grandpa Cha and MSY die in an accident.

    I think the plan to do identity theft was set in motion before their deaths, since MSY called Mommy Oh begging her to save her daughter.
    4. Unspecified amount of time later, Daddy Cha has turned into a monster and the abuse has already begun
    5. Unspecified amount of time time later, there is the fire at the ceremony, and CJY begs his father to save CDH

    So the name swap in the registry happened after the fire? After CJY lost his memories?

    But my mind is blown that both Cha Do Hyun and Shin Se Gi are alters, and Shin Se Gi was created first! The person who truly died in that fire was young Cha Joon Young.

    I hate the dad being bipolar.. I hope the show explains it in some way. If they try to redeem him and Granny in some way, I will punch the screen! On that note, have you still not seen Punch?

    Am I the only one who thinks that Oh Ri Jin is Chae Young Shin v2.0? Both had intense childhood traumas that caused them to lock up their memories and forget their identities. Both were nursed back to health by caring adoptive families. Both reconnected with the one person from the past who was key to unlocking their memories. And in both cases, the male child didn’t suffer as much during the traumatic incident, but the aftermath left a deeper impact on their psyche.

    • Hee hee, I’m ready with reference charts! The exact dates are unclear, though, and I’m okay with that. It gives KMHM that Edgar Allen Poe vibe. It’s like the clocks were different back then, along with everyone having different names. But if we believe Grandma and Shin Se-Ki (who aren’t great witnesses): Granddad dragged MSY back, using the family register (where she’s still married to CJP) and holding her debts over her head. (No matter how smart MSY was, I can well believe if she had medical debts here in the States she might be tempted to go back to Seung Jin. I’ve got way too much experience with American medical debt to blame her for that.)

      I think MSY starts working for Seung Jin, but Grandma has never liked her. When Cha Jun-Pyo (Dad) shows up with his own son, sometime later that year, I bet Grandma starts looking for ways to get rid of MSY. Meanwhile, Cha Jun-Pyo is getting the raw end of his dad’s temper as soon as he arrives home, and JP’s attitude is going downhill. We don’t know how many months go by–not many, because they still haven’t added the Cha boy to the register–but tensions are definitely rising in the household when MSY calls her friend in a hurry and asks for help with her daughter. That’s not a normal phone call, so something was up–and MSY and the Chairman die in an accident later that day. Coincidence? I think not.

      It’s possible that MSY was already worried about her safety and her daughter’s safety when she left. I’m imagining maybe a month or two passed between her death and the ceremony and fire–this was the Basement Period. But I find it possible to believe that Jun-Pyo was already taking out frustrations on the girl before MSY’s death, at least when her mother wasn’t around–and/or using the girl to punish his son for infractions.

      I’ve actually revised my earlier theory that Grandma planned the “identity theft” ahead of time. I think before the fire, Grandma wistfully thought it would be nice if MSY’s child were out of the way. After the fire, Grandma seized her chance. Since MSY’s child was kidnapped and missing, and little Joon-Young wasn’t answering to his own name any more, Grandma could simply change the gender of the child on the registry.

      I don’t think the dad was bipolar, so to speak. He’s got major issues, and the fact that he was once capable of being a nice person just makes him that much worse. I’ll be really annoyed if the show tries to redeem the Cha adults, but I like the insinuation that Cha Dad was probably abused by his own father. That wouldn’t excuse his crimes, but it would explain a lot. A dysfunctional family is like it’s own weird ecosystem. I can believe the dad found it easy to be a decent person when he ran away into a totally different environment. But when he went back to the bad old environment of his birth family, he’s again caught up in feeling like a horrible, inferior person, and caught up again in mistaking abuse for love.

      Episode 17 has CJP basically say as much to his son, that he has to hide out in order to survive as himself. And then, it’s his love for his son that Shin Hwa-Ran twists to convince him to go back to his family (so she can get the resources she wants). I don’t think he ever stops wanting to be a good father, but he underestimates his ability to remain normal once he’s back in the twisted world of his parents.

      I guess I find this story makes more sense as a narrative than as a timeline! The events by themselves look ridiculous. They only make sense if you think about the emotions driving people. Hopefully the last episodes will give more insight into those first days after CJP returned home and into the accident that killed MSY. But even if they don’t, I still think all of this could have happened in a few short months. In the children’s memories, a short period of time would loom large since they were in a new household with new people. And it doesn’t take much time for a reunited family to break down in all the old fights and resentments.

      What is it with all these male characters with tender delicate rosebud psyches?!? Though I think with Young-Shin and Jung-Hoo they both had scars, but of different kinds. She had pretty complete memory loss and some PTSD, though he’s the one who ends up more isolated and antisocial.

      Man, the next episodes of KMHM had better deliver some good conflicts–I’m still annoyed that when Healer ended, I had thought up better endings for it than the one it had. And Punch is my no-brainer next-up, if I can stop rewatching KMHM!

  3. Well your right to be cautious, eh? So many awesome shows have shot themselves in the foot in the past with their finales (*cough* Nae Il’s Cantabile *cough*). But I think from the track record of KMHM, we’ll be very satisfied (I hope). Now I’m doubting…darn. Okay scratch that. I’ll look forward to it.

  4. Well, the show has yet to explain how Chairman Cha and MSY died so I’m waiting on that. Not all secrets are out of the bag yet.

    On another point, Cha Do Hyun/ Joon Young is not an alter. He just took on Ri Jin’s original (hehe) name because 1) he felt guilty and 2) He didn’t want her to be forgotten. Plus that’s when Nana first came out. We learned that Nana is a dormant personality that was around since 21 years ago. Everyone decided to call him Do Hyun because it was the only name he would respond to, and it kept their secrets safe.

  5. Perry is definitely my favorite alter too. I was sooo happy to see him again. I almost cried when he left so soon. JUST LET THE MAN HAVE A DRINK!

    Like you said, it’s okay if it’s not a bow-tied ending. Ki-joon can take over the company using the ace up his sleeve, financial ruin will give Do-hyun’s family their just desserts, and Do-hyun can move in with the Ohs.

    Ri-jin gets her man, Ri-on gets a fangirl (Yo-na), and dad gets a dongsaeng (Perry), haha. Oh! and mom gets the (mostly) perfect son-in-law. Then their weird happy family grows by one more (or +6). I do wonder how Mr. X will shake things up though.

  6. @ Camille and Pranx–Hmm, yeah, I’m still not sure how to think of whether CDH is an alter, or a renamed Joon-Young, or what. I’m trying to get my head around it.

    And I’m actually optimistic, too, but I don’t want to pass my optimism on to anyone else by making predictions! Don’t blame me if things go wrong. 🙂

    @Muse–I love your proposed ending, with a happy family of an indeterminate number of personalities drinking the Ssang Ri home-brew. I wonder if we’ll meet Mr. X…I’m okay with him being an emergency back-up alter who we don’t meet, if the writer decides there’s no time. But I guess I shouldn’t worry we’ll run out of plot since our hero does have an emergency back-up personality! Sweet!

  7. I just heard Park Seo Joon (Letting you go) and Ji Sung’s (Violet) songs for this show. In addition to great acting, this show has benefitted from great OSTs.
    PS: Violet is from Winter Sonata I think, one of the earliest KDrama hits

  8. I love your point that emphasize what best on this show
    but at this point, I maybe bias to say I am already happy
    It just I love the way everything have been and I want to end it perfectly but I am grateful to find this drama when it air and join the journey
    there’s so much happen and there’s also a lot of bad things shown
    but at the end, I find myself cherish and smile about all little moment like the 10 pm, the honest conversation, brother and sister, how all alters basically protect him, how yo-na attract to ri-on, how the family interaction

    and I love how rijin gave him that name and their hug in last ep 18
    as much as I found the flaw on a show, I am glad that at the end I found myself smile and remember the sweet moment everytime
    and this is why I love this show, I am glad that this show show us instead of tell us what actually happen
    people have diverse interpretation regarding the scene
    but one that truly shows is how a family can change a kid, how honesty and support can give to another people and even a bad person is not only a black color
    also even we have a bad start, we can still try to have a happy ending

    thanks for your review and I love your pov ^-^
    hope the ending will satisfied all of us

    • You’ve mentioned so many of the things I love in this show. I’ll still like it whatever happens in the last episodes, and I’ll be so sad when it’s over. At least we’re watching together!

  9. waw finally I found the person that shares the same thoughts as me …I am late to watch this drama I know but I hope someone answers me ^^ first u were the first person that explained what I couldn’t sleep thinking of >< ahh u can see am fussing all alone cuz no one is watching it now and I hope someone answer my curiosity ^^

    • Hi Ashten! I’m so glad you found this show. I love it enormously, and I still go back and watch episodes sometimes. I’m here for you!

      • oh thank you ..well I finished it and right now am repeating it and am at ep5 <
        thanks to ur blog I also understood that ^^ I only wanna know if NANA was what they thought the new personality during all those episodes ? then turned out that she was not a new personality …and then Mr.X showed just toward the end ,was it when Do hyun asked Ri Gin about her father and she told him she never knew him ?

        T_T can't get over this drama its epic XD
        I also write some reviews about dramas so nice to meet u ^^

        • These are super tricky questions. You’re asking about the parts of the plot that weren’t explained very well. But I think Nana and Mr X were personalities that had always been there, but only now appeared in public. As Do Hyun remembered more of his past, those characters also became more active again. But my theory is that they probably were created long ago during the traumatic past (just as Shin Seki was). This is just a theory, though. Some parts of the plot don’t actually make sense, as a result of K-drama’s fast production process.

      • Am afraid parts of my post will be deleted again ,anyways yea my guess was also that the new personality was Mr.X cuz Do hyun was well aware of Nana all the time and she just appears when he remembers the little girl,still Mr.X appearance really fit the last few episodes XD also I was confused why Do hyun actually took her name and thought he made it on purpose ,but then I knew he was already traumatized and got confused himself which made the drama even more great ! at first it was really difficult for me to understand how and why he took the name !!

  10. again my comment is missing some parts when I’m posting it O.o here is the missing part 🙂

    ” I mean I couldn’t get over the drama and couldn’t handle it that it was finished so right away I repeated it >< "

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